Saturday, July 22, 2006

Why write a blog?

Yesterday, too lazy to go out after a very heavy seafood lunch, I sat at home online and manage to catch up with an old classmate of mine. A week before this, I got a notification from Friendster that she has started a blog. Curious on how she was doing and a little 'kepoh', I went to check out her blog.

In her blog was the usual stuff on her normal daily stuff, *interesting (wink, wink)* incident on her dating life. So, while catching up on the normal stuff (work, work and work), I casually mention that I've been reading her blog (so that she don't have to beat around the bush to get to her lovelife stuff). Her reaction was one that I have not expected.

She literally said "You've read it!!! No one was supposed to read it! I'm so embarrassed"......

I was speechless for a moment and then I asked....

"Why write a blog when you don't want anyone to read it?"

Then she go on explaining that she was bored and so she posted the incident on the blog. She didn't expect anyone would have gotten to read it. :S

Her reaction got me thinking...when I first started my blog, the purpose was not to all show-and-tell to the whole world. (Cos I was literally bitching bout my co-worker then :P).

Eventually, I told Kim bout my blog, who responded "You're bitching bout her, better not let anyone know you have this blog". And Kim, as I know, have several blogs, in which some she did not reveal to me or anyone in our group of friends.

So, is blog a form of privacy? Or a form of public show & tell?

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Lazy, Hazy, Crazy Sunday Afternoon...

It's a lazy hazy Sunday afternoon. I've been stuck in front of the PC for more than 2 hours. This morning, I woke up directionless, aimless, clueless wandering what went wrong last night.

It should have been a very exciting weekend for me, but it took one wrong turn. I've should have known better not to expect or hope for anything. People said, "once bitten twice shy." But I wasn' was more like twice bitten but still so thick-skin.

What was I thinking?! I was so close to craziness when I left the place yesterday, a subtle sense of feelings that I have not felt in a while now...yes, it's been a while. While I welcomed the feeling, I wish it never came and I would to never feel it again. Feeling it makes me feel like I'm back in my college days. Once, I spent days, months, years mulling over this hope and craziness. I would have thought the experience have taught me well, but here I am today...starting over it again.

How can one feel this? How can this feeling be so wrong? Why did I let this happen again? Once again...I am close to craziness again...

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Going back to the start?

I just had to post this up...this song precisely explains my feelings at the moment. Disappointment after disappointment...I'm still going back to the same thing. Why am I so stupid?!

Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start

Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start

by Coldplay "The Scientist"

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Dead day...

It's super dead day today and I'm bored to death at work. There wasn't anything major to do...such a slow month...I hope things better pick up soon. I rather be packed with work than sit around doing nothing.

The whole work issue has put me in a sombre mood. With nothing much to do and 2 office buddies leaving the company next week doesn't help to boost up the morale in this office at all. So much negavity and yet I still need to hang on...I just want to scream out loud to the management..."SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING!!"

To add salt to wound, my other* phone died on me. My 'other' phone was a clam-shell phone which was half-cracked ages ago. On Monday night, I was chatting with a friend when I suddenly dropped the phone. The whole phone went half in separate ways. I thought it could have died there and then, but to my suprise it was still working as the cable was still attached.

Being a happy owner of the other phone that could live that long, I proudly it show off to my office buddies the next day. As I was doing the demo of the nokia6260-like (by twisting the whole screen panel to face the opposite direction) with my other phone, the screen cable tore!! And there goes the night time, the sound was gone too!

So now, I officially declare that my other phone dead. Before I look for a predecessor, I think I'm gonna give it a proper burial. Afterall, it has been a good phone.

Ciao phone...!~

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Dead blog...back in action!

Haven't been blogging for a year now...finally it just took a simple question* from a friend to remind me of my dead blog. Sorry blog...

Lot of things have happened within the year (duh!). I have changed job, got a promotion, Sue finally came back from Japan, Kim just went to UK and found a new friendship with a faraway friend. Nothing much have changed really.

When I look back at my post, I found myself a bore...ranting about drama stories and endings. I guess that's a reason why I stopped blogging. Writer's block you may call it...sometimes I really don't know what to write.

And right now...I'm stuck again. Roger and out till next time...

"Do you blog? What do you blog about?"